Monday, August 29, 2011

Big D

Hey bloggers.  In the next couple of days I am going to try to catch up on some blogs and see how you all are doing but first I wanted to give you a little update on my life.  I haven't run since Thursday, August 18.  I was out of town the weekend of the 19th and didn't take my running stuff with me.  My life has been incredibly stressful and I have just put running on the back burner.  As it has already been posted on facebook and our family and friends know, I am going to go ahead and fill you all in.  Jess and I are getting a divorce and I am having a tough time staying motivated.  I am worried that I will not be able to complete the Nike Women's Marathon and I am very upset about that.  My training has been less than stellar this summer and it's very frustrating.  With all of the emotions I've been dealing with, it has made it hard for me to eat and sleep which makes it difficult to feel prepared for a run.  Any motivation or encouragement that you can send my way would be much appreciated.  

My Aunt Suzie is now going with me to San Francisco so I will have someone to cheer me on whether I do the half or full but I am really disappointed in myself for letting my training go out the window. 
Me, my mom, my sister and Aunt Suzie in Aug 2008
Any words of wisdom to get back on the wagon?  I know I need to "just do it" but I am struggling with that.  HELP!

Mallory

15 comments:

  1. There are many things that can happen in life to derail the plans we've made. Divorce is definitely one of the big ones.

    Try to remember how good you felt, and how happy you were when you were running regularly, and following your training plan. Even if you can't jump right back into training, go out and run a mile. It doesn't have to be fast, just run a mile. Help remind yourself how much you love running. Go out each day and run at least a mile. Eventually you'll get that bug again that makes you want to run further...

    "A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step." -- Confucius

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  2. Aww, Mallory. So sorry girl. Virtual hugs sent your way. I guess I would say to use this training and race to heal and put all those hurtful emotions on the road and stomp them out. Give things away every mile so that at the end of it all you might have a bit of relief and clarity. Seriously, I'd consciously think about something that is hurtful or bringing you down about the situation and then mentally and maybe even with a physical movement, let it go to the wind...clear your mind and heart and use this race as a chance to process.

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  3. Hey Mallory! I am so sorry that you are dealing with this. If I were you, maybe I'd use this full as a therapy session for all kinds of things. Instead of training for this run, use it as a way to help cope with all the crap you are going through. I agree with Amanda, give things away every mile. Focus on the feeling you will get in the end. This marathon is a tough one so don't put any pressure on your performance, just think of it is this mile is for me and so on. So you aren't training to have a PR or anything, you are just training because you can. It is something you can control. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you! I am sad.

    -Jen

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  4. Im so sorry that you are going through such a hard time right now. When you are emotionally exhausted doing any physical activity just seems like too much. Try to remember how good it feels to run and use your body. Use your running as a tool to release the stress. Try to remind yourself how much running will help you both physically and emotionally. Sometimes when I am stuggling with wanting to run I just don't think about it I just put on my shoes and go outside and start.

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear the news, that must be so hard :( I know how hard it can be to get yourself up and out the door for a run when all you want to do is curl up and be sad. That's the hardest part - getting out the door. Once you're out, you'll feel 100 times better, I promise! I think you should do the race, whether it's the full or the half. It would do you a lot of good to have a goal right now- a project to pour yourself into and to distract you from everything else crappy that's happening. Run with music- loud, angry music if you need to, I find music to be a wonderful distraction when I don't want to be left with my own thoughts for too long on the run.

    Keep your chin up! Think of this as a beginning and a whole lot of new doors opening for you right now. Buy a cute new running outfit that makes you look FAB (with the ex's credit card?! haha just kidding!) This is a chance for you to reconnect with you and the things you love to do. Running would be a great part of that! Good luck!!

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  6. Honey keep your head up!!! Get back into training, let it release your stress and help keep things off of your mind. You will feel so good to be able to accomplish this training and race without him by you....You can make it without hime, prove it to yourself! We will be here for you! You just might me you a HOT man while racing!!!

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  7. Hey Mallory, so sorry to hear about relationship, but just remember to be strong and you will make it through. Try to use your running to work through the emotions and keep your head up!

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  8. Do the marathon. Own it. Love it. Crush the hills. Drink good beer at the finish. One of the reasons I still do road races as oppoesd to adventure races is that sometimes it rules to do something just for myself.
    I wish I had magic words to make you feel better.

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  9. Laurie took the words out of my mouth. Use the race as catharsis, and kick the course in the butt.

    I'm really sorry to hear about you and Jess... I'll be thinking about you.

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  10. I've never run a full, so I hate to say to run it when I don't know how hard it really is. But...I agree with the others. Run it for you. And I love the Confucius quote in the first comment...it's on my wall here at school. the marathon could be the first steps for your new life.

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  11. Awww Mallory this really hit home because I too am dealing with some interesting news and don't feel like running.

    I think I will go run tonight, just for YOU. Seriously I'll be thinking about you and sending you good vibes. This is such sad news :(

    As for advice, I have none. Usually when I get in ruts just talking about it and putting it out there (like you are doing here) helps.

    Hang in there.

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  12. Hey girl, I'm so sorry to hear the news. I can't imagine how hard and stressful this all must be. We love you out here in the blogosphere, so know we're always here for ya. I 110% agree with Amanda and Laurie -- give things away every mile during your training runs. Then go out there and kick some major ass during the marathon. Running is therapy, so just get yourself out the door, then the therapy will do it's magic. Let running be your "YOU" time, because more than ever, you deserve it right now. Don't stress about missing a few mid week runs, but DO get those long runs in. You can do it! Sending Rocky Mountain sized hugs!

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  13. I am so sorry hun, my friend is going through the same thing. It is hard, but I think that sometimes it can be the right thing to do if you will be better off alone. I think focusing on something else such as running might get your head away from over thinking your divorce. Try to put more thoughts/effort into running and think positive. You have so many great things about you, and you have your whole life to shine!

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  14. So sorry for what you are going through. I agree with the others, look at the training as therapy. Your time to sort things out in your head or the time where you don't have to think about all the other stuff. You can do it!

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  15. Sorry to read about the "D". It sucks. As others have said your running is now your therapy. Continued success towards SF.

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